I am often touched by lyrics in songs… maybe not the entire song but a few lines or two.  Sugarland’s “I get a little bit stronger” was playing on the radio today as I drove to work.  I know the situation is not nearly the same as mine but I couldn’t help but be reminded… that even on my weakest days I still get a little bit stronger…. I started thinking about the many internal struggles that I have been having with myself lately.  I am not a miserable person by any means and I always try to have a smile on my face.  A lot of times I do my best to encourage and uplift those around me (reminding myself of the positive things along the way).  The first process in Making Things Happen Intensive is writing down your fears.  I have felt overwhelmed and stressed lately as I work on AM ”downloading” my fears, my thoughts and my todo’s nightly.  I know that I have to walk through the valley and up a mountain before I can get on top.  No one said it was easy but in the end I KNOW without a doubt the reward will be 10000x greater than today!  So I work on myself…. daily!  Digging deeper and deeper to find the route cause of why I feel the way I do.  The feeling of being overwhelmed and stressed comes from my todo list… Tonight I took Action Step #2 of many towards this… I entered my todo’s in the “Things” app on my Mac!!! I felt an elephant step off my shoulders… I was feeling the stress because everynight I was writting a list of fears and todos in the same list … This didn’t work for me!  I need my todo’s organized by catagory…. ex. House/Photography/ Other Ideas/etc and seperated from how I am feeling.  I feel better about that!  That’s all great but what about these Fears huh…. All day I have realized that it’s through a broken heart, a break down of Self, walking through the rough terrain… That’s What Makes Us Stronger.  Everyday through what we may call pain…if we (I) are true to ourselves (myself) …we (I) will GROW and we (I) will get Stronger!

My friend from MTH, Sarah sent me a super sweet card that had a Motivational Wallet Card inside…. I LOVE IT!  My brain has been spinning since I opened her card… It made me want to work harder at getting through the tough Self Things I’m Dealing with Lately.  The card says Repeat after Me: (I felt like Sarah was making me do this)

I AM STRONG

I AM SPECIAL

I CAN DO ANYTHING

SOMETIMES LIFE THROWS HURDLES IN OUR PATH, BUT WE JUST HAVE TO KEEP ON GOING FULL SPEED AHEAD, LOOKING INSIDE OURSELVES FOR THE COURAGE TO LEAP OVER THEM AND NEVER LOOK BACK.

ALWAYS BELIEVE IN YOURSELF AS MUCH AS OTHERS BELIEVE IN YOU. ( WOW…RIGHT!!)

The same day, I posted sticky notes by my door that I see every day when I leave… repeating the affirmations to myself that I can overcome my two biggest fears.  Do I want to share them with you?  Nope… Not Really…. I am making myself do it…. so here goes….

I AM GOOD ENOUGH!! even though others in the past have said I wasn’t

I AM CAPABLE OF RECEIVING LOVE AND GIVING LOVE (WHOLE HEARTED/UNAFRAID OF BEING HURT) regardless of my past….

So I hope if you are reading this that If you are afraid of something… JUST WRITE IT! Its a start and its better than nothing.  First step to overcoming it is admitting it. My favorite quote “if you do the same things you’ve always done you’ll get the same results”  So, If you need a change start today…. don’t wait till its too late…..